You may be thinking about postponing or even canceling an upcoming trip due to responsibilities you cannot avoid. The hardest part about this is not just changing your plans; the disappointment can bring up memories of a similar event from the past. Letting go of your feelings attached to a previous experience can help you focus your attention and efficiently manage the current situation. Thursday, March 15, 2007
That hits a little close to home. I was going to take a trip. And it looks like I'll be canceling those plans. And this is the one weekend I absolutely do not want to be in Boston because of memories of what may arguably have been the worst day of my life. But horoscopes are funny things, that don't usually mean anything, and yet I read them anyhow because sometimes they will tell me just what I need to hear. In this case, it's so right, I just need to let go of those feelings and carry on.
I'm usually pretty good about not living in the past, but in this particular instance, it's hard for me not to. And in this particular instance, I really shouldn't. I have so much that I can look forward to this weekend - hanging out on Saturday with some of the coolest, liveliest, most caring and generous people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting, then spending Sunday with an entirely different crew who meet all those same criteria, and let's not forget cute boys. ;)
The past is going to be there whether I like it or not. Nothing will ever change that, and there may be nothing that will make it not hurt. But there are lots of other memories that I should hang onto instead. And I know I'm doing all the good memories a disservice by minimalizing them. It's just so damn hard to bolster myself. I'm fearful that things won't work out the way I want them to, because I know how crushing even the smallest disappointment this weekend will be to me.
Let me just make it through 'til Monday without getting hurt. Actually, now that I think about it, the way everything has been changing lately, I stand a pretty decent chance of having other hurts eased somewhat. I shouldn't get my hopes up though.
That hits a little close to home. I was going to take a trip. And it looks like I'll be canceling those plans. And this is the one weekend I absolutely do not want to be in Boston because of memories of what may arguably have been the worst day of my life. But horoscopes are funny things, that don't usually mean anything, and yet I read them anyhow because sometimes they will tell me just what I need to hear. In this case, it's so right, I just need to let go of those feelings and carry on.
I'm usually pretty good about not living in the past, but in this particular instance, it's hard for me not to. And in this particular instance, I really shouldn't. I have so much that I can look forward to this weekend - hanging out on Saturday with some of the coolest, liveliest, most caring and generous people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting, then spending Sunday with an entirely different crew who meet all those same criteria, and let's not forget cute boys. ;)
The past is going to be there whether I like it or not. Nothing will ever change that, and there may be nothing that will make it not hurt. But there are lots of other memories that I should hang onto instead. And I know I'm doing all the good memories a disservice by minimalizing them. It's just so damn hard to bolster myself. I'm fearful that things won't work out the way I want them to, because I know how crushing even the smallest disappointment this weekend will be to me.
Let me just make it through 'til Monday without getting hurt. Actually, now that I think about it, the way everything has been changing lately, I stand a pretty decent chance of having other hurts eased somewhat. I shouldn't get my hopes up though.
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