Damn my sister! I subscribe to the blog that she and her husband write, and they had a new post up today. Last weekend was their one year wedding anniversary, and to memorialize the occasion, they took a trip down memory lane remembering and sharing all of the events from the weekend of their wedding last April. Their blog was littered with pictures and memories reliving the entire weekend. And I know that I should look back on that weekend and be glad, but it just gives me this big empty feeling inside.
That entire weekend and the week that followed was a positively magical time for Johnny and me while we visited Seattle. And remembering all the joy I felt then only serves to remind me of the big hole in my heart. It's so much easier to think only with my short-term memory and tell myself that I hate him, but then I'm reminded of all the years before that. It almost makes me hate him more for having taken away from me something that was so incredibly beautiful. Despite everything that came after, I really did love him, and probably will until the day I die. And I would sell my soul to be able to go back in time and relive those years that were so amazing.
I'll live. I just don't want to hear anyone tell me how great love is, thanks. I already know. Don't remind me.
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Hey, darlin'. I'm not going to spout any cliches. I hated that myself almost to the point where I'd punch my own mother if she said one of those horrible platitudes to me.
I'll just say I'm right here. Always got your back :-)
Hi darlin'
I'm not going to spout any cliches at you. I know that I hated it and I would've punched my own mother if she told me one of those horrific platitudes.
I'll just say that I'm right here. I've always got your back :-)
Love makes the world go round. *ducks*
I thought you worked for like a university or something. It's gravity that makes the world go 'round. Love's just what keeps us spinning...and I get dizzy too easily.
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